Imma let you in on a secret: love works better when you don't need it. It's a simple concept, something I remember reading in passing. It's like holding sand, I guess? Scoop up dry sand, and hold it gently, watch how it stays cupped in your palm, micmicking the curves and creases. Do it again, this time, clench your fists, try holding it so tightly like as if it might slip away, now watch it slip away. Watch it slip between your fingers, slip right out of your grip until there's nothing but remnants of what used to be. It's the same with people, when you don't give them space to grow, to breathe, to be their own person. When you're so desperately trying to hold onto them, to keep them stagnant, then you're gonna have to watch them slowly drift away from you.
On a more personal note, it's the mid of the year now, and this has by far been one of the fastest year. I'm 3 papers and a semester away from graduating so there's that, relatively exciting but definitely terrifying. Other than that, it's been a good year so far, my heart is full and my soul is (sort of ahaha) at peace, it's been good.