On 26th January, I wrote down my half-assed New Year's resolution and they included;
- Be kinder.
- Do NOT be sorry for your soft and vulnerable.
- Love (a little less) harder (perhaps?)
- Blow everyone out of the water in university.
- (Try very very hard to) embrace change
I guess it all went well, kind of?
Studying human evolution has made me realize that there are two things which are infinite.
- the universe
- human stupidity
and it all honesty, I'm not entirely sure about 1. There has been so much controversy going on in social medias of what is and isn't accepted and lemme tell you this, fuck that. It is okay to gasp at the sunset every single evening like it is the first sunset you have ever seen. It is okay to take photos of everything you find pretty. It is okay to laugh about something that happened a week ago (it is okay to laugh entirely too much). It is okay to say that the sunlight looks like honey, that the world looks like a dream today. It is okay to memorize poems by heart and recite them to people who make your heart feel warm. It is okay to take this life and weave it golden. Don’t let anyone tell you that you are silly or dramatic or stupid. You are beautiful. You have beautiful eyes through which everything sparkles and nothing goes unnoticed and you are so loved for that. Just do you and no one else. You do not need validation from anyone else, of course, input & opinions can be taken into consideration but the decisions you make about your life is for you, yourself and no one else.
"My philosophy is: It’s none of my business what people say of me, and think of me. I am what I am, and I do what I do. I expect nothing, and accept everything. And it makes life so much easier."— Anthony Hopkin
- If he knows exactly what to say, he’s probably said it to someone else before.
- The people you are kind to won’t forget you. Even if you never see them again.
- He is scared of how invincible you will become when you realize you deserve better.
- How someone reacts to your sadness says a lot about how long they’re going to be in your life.
- Make friends with people you would travel the world with.
- Do not promise when you are happy.
- Do not respond when you are angry
- Do not decide when you are sad.
- There is only so much disappointments a person can take before they give up entirely.
- You're not over if it still makes you angry.
- "Almost" is a very terrible way of loving someone.
- Suffering is necessary until you realize it is unnecessary.
- Sometimes not telling people anything is a good thing.
- You do not need validation from anyone about your life
2015 has been overwhelming in the best & worst way possible. A lot of my closest friends have gone overseas for further studies leaving just a handful back in Brutown, even then I don't really get to see them much, so it'd been kinda shit in that particular corner; but the friends I've made in university have been good, they have been really good. Studies have been going surprisingly well, I honestly thought that I would've pussied out and given up by now but I'm actually getting credits to HD's (man, I'd shove this up the faces of all the people back in my high school years who doubted me if I could). I know I've said it a lot of times but I honestly never thought the year would turn out like this, truth to be told, I wouldn't want it to turn out any other way.
I've learned that you do NOT always get back what you give, man, they tell you that all the time, but 99.8% of the time, that does not happen, and you can either be a little bitch and whine about it or get up and make full use of what you have. The biggest lesson of 2015 would be that eventually you'll know that what lasts, lasts; what doesn't, doesn't. That time heals all and solves most things and what time can't solve, you have to solve for yourself.