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"It is impossible to live without failing at something, unless you live so cautiously that you might as well not have lived at all - in which case, you fail by default."

Long Distance Relationship? There’s An App For That…

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Introducing "Pair", a free for download iPhone App which allows two people to share a private Facebook like feed where you can post photos, notes, etc. without the world knowing. Pair also allows you to share a ‘to do’ list, draw a picture together or ‘thumb kiss’ if you both put your thumbs on your screen.

What do you do. What do you do when you want something so bad that you know will never happen?

I don’t even know. That is the worst feeling in the world, I hate it and I am sure that every else does as well. I guess we just have to stop expecting, stop thinking about it, stop everything, and just give up. Sometimes there are times when you’re supposed to not give in, you’re supposed to fight for what you want. Everything can happen if you make it happen. But sometimes it takes time and it just isn’t that easy.

But there comes a time where we just need to give up and stop hurting ourselves. If it has been so long, maybe its just time we need to give up to prevent ourselves from hurting so much. Letting go of something that you want is the hardest thing. You should never think negatively though, you shouldn’t think that it won’t ever happen, because you never know. It might just happen, but until then, let go. It’ll happen when it does, if it does. Don’t hold onto something that might not be worth it in the end.

Things happen for a reason, so if it happens. It happen…
I already am, I already was, and I still have time to be.

Look, lots of people lose themselves in love. It’s no shame. They write songs about it. The hitch is, you can’t stay lost. Sooner or later, you have to get back to yourself.

The new terms and conditions on the website is just Godly.

"You have to be at least 13 years old to use -. We're serious: it's a hard rule, based on U.S. federal and state legislation, even if you're 12.9 years old. If you're younger than 13, don't use -. Ask your parents for an Xbox or try books."

"Don't do bad things to - or other users. Some particularly egregious examples of automated "bad things" are listed in this section."

Uploading Sexually Explicit Video. "We're not in the business of profiting from adult-oriented videos and hosting this stuff is fucking expensive. You can use services like xHamster to host those instead."

Privacy Violations. Don't use - to deceptively obtain personal information. Don't post content that violates anyone's privacy, including personally identifying or confidential information like credit card numbers, social security numbers, unlisted contact information, &qu…
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“I’m hoping for the day you meet a girl who treats people like you do. I hope you fall for her, and I hope she makes you think she fell for you too. And while you’re planning your life together, I hope she gets up and walks right out your front door. I hope you never see her again, and I hope that breaks your fucking heart.”

Have you ever thought about how, somewhere in this world, someone is feeling the exact same you are? Yeah, you might feel lonely, but just think. There's 7 billion people in this world. At least one of them feels the exact same way you do right now.
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Milky Way image reveals detail of a billion stars

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More than one billion stars in the Milky Way can be seen together in detail for the first time in an image captured by an international team of astronomers using infrared images from telescopes in the northern and southern hemispheres. Large structures of the Milky Way galaxy, such as gas and dust clouds where stars have formed and died, can be seen in the image.

The image shows the plane of the Milky Way galaxy, which is often described as looking like two fried eggs back-to-back, with a flat disc in the middle. Earth is close to the edge of this disc, and the image shows a cross-section through the disc as seen from Earth’s perspective.

It combines data from the UKIDSS sky survey taken by the UK Infrared Telescope in Hawaii with the VVV survey from the VISTA telescope in Chile. Astronomers used infrared radiation instead of visible light to enable them to see through much of the dust in the Milky Way and record details of the centre of the galaxy.

Scientists have pub…

How it all started.

Every second, light from the beginning of time is raining down on Earth's surface in a ceaseless torrent. Only a fraction of the light present in the Universe is visible to the naked eye, though: if we could see all of it, the sky would be ablaze with this primordial light both day and night. However, some of this hidden light is not quite a featureless glow; the long wavelength universal glow known as the Cosmic Microwave Background (CMB)  in fact displays minute variations in its wavelength. The CMB carries with it an image of our universe as it was just after its birth, and this discovery has provided key evidence that the beginning really did start with the Big Bang.
We were discussing homosexuality because of an allusion to it in the book we were reading, and several boys made comments such as, “That’s disgusting.” We got into the debate and eventually a boy admitted that he was terrified/disgusted when he was once sharing a taxi and the other male passenger made a pass at him.

The lightbulb went off. “Oh,” I said. “I get it. See, you are afraid, because for the first time in your life you have found yourself a victim of unwanted sexual advances by someone who has the physical ability to use force against you.” The boy nodded and shuddered visibly.

“But,” I continued. “As a woman, you learn to live with that from the time you are fourteen, and it never stops. We live with that fear every day of our lives. Every man walking through the parking garage the same time you are is either just a harmless stranger or a potential rapist. Every time.”

The girls in the room nodded, agreeing. The boys seemed genuinely shocked.

“So think about that…
That post was written at the exact time I saw your tweets. I didn't wait three days to write it, obviously. There's no benefits for what I've done. It's my blog, I get to write whatever I want. Whether you or anyone else agree to it or not. If you don't like it, then leave. I'm not forcing you to stay and read everything I write. And I do not feel "like a fucking winner" cause why should I? Do I have a reason to?

And I do have problems. He's not a douchebag, just cause he was to you and some other people, doesn't mean he is to everyone. People change, just so you know. And I wasn't getting "close" to him. You don't even know what we talk about or whatever, and you go assuming. It's not that I'm backing him up or anything, I'm just stating facts. Yes, he was a complete asshole last time. But he's not now. And that's suppose to be a good thing. You make it sound like as if, once an asshole, always an asshole…

"What's a blog for? cuz im planning on making one." - kev31_lo

well, for me, it's more of a space for venting I guess? I mean, I don't really get local readers, 99.8% of them are out of this country, so yeah. It's a space for ranting and all. It's where I come to post about everything, good or bad, happy or sad, worries and anger. And this is where no one's opinion should matter to you, cause it's your blog.

For me, it's where I write about my own opinion, about my own beliefs regardless if I'm right or wrong. I write about people, things, places and whatsoever. If people don't like it, then I honestly don't give a flying fuck. If they don't like it, they can just leave.

So to sum it all up, it's where opinions are expressed. And remember, blog to express, not to impress.

11 and going.

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exactly.

Mockingjay (The Hunger Gmes #3) by Suzanne Collins

It's impossible to be the Mockingjay. Impossible to complete even this one sentence. Because now I know that everything I say will be directly taken out on Peeta. Result in his torture. But not his death, no, nothing so merciful as that. Snow will ensure that his life is much worse than death.
          "Cut," I hear Cressida say quietly.
          "What's wrong with her?" Plutarch says under his breatj.
          "She's figured out how Snow's using Peeta," says Finnick.
     There's something like a collective sigh of regret from the semicircle of people spread out before me. Because I know this now. Because there will never be a way for me to not know this again. Because, beyond the military disadvantages losing a Mockingjay entails, I am broken.
     Several sets of arms would embrace me. But in the end, the only person I truly want to comfort me is Haymitch, because he loves Peeta, too. U reach out for him and say something li…
Her eyes don't light up when she hears your name anymore. She doesn't get chills when you walk by and her heart doesn't race when you smile at her. You don't get to her like you used to. You're just a bad memory in the back of her mind. So don't be surprised next time you make your way past her and she doesn't even glance your way. And don't bother trying to talk to her, you won't get a response. She's over fighting the same losing battle. The saddest part is that you have no one to blame but yourself. She gave you ever chance you could ask for. And you fucked up everytime. Now she walks around with nothing but a smile on her face, and she laughs louder then ever before. Looks like you've lost her, love.
Lets put two and two together. You complain about him, but answer when he calls. You say you dislike him, but get all excited when someone mentions his name. Don’t you think you’re the one hurting yourself? Don’t you see, every time you answer the text messages, he wants to see if you’ll jump to answer him. Every time you mention his name and talk about how much you cared, it makes him feel like he has a hold on you, like he has you wrapped around his finger. He’s thinking, wow i can do whatever i want to this girl, and she’ll always be running back to me. Don’t put yourself in the position of seeing him and talking to him, you’ll just ruin your days. And I understand he was there for you, and he used to be everything you wanted. But if he cared and loved you, where is he?  He shouldn’t have said such a thing if he couldn’t back it up. And I know, you had laughs and good times but i know that the good times can’t compare to the times you’ve cried. If you don’t let him back…

You haven’t missed me for one fucking minute. You have never for one single second in your pathetic life missed me. You might have missed fucking with my head, and you might have missed the satisfaction you early got from demolishing me, but those are your emotions you’re messing with - not mine.

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Lullaby by The Spill Canvas

It’s the way that you blush when you’re nervous, it’s your ability to make me earn this. I know that you’re tired, just let me sing you to sleep. It’s about how you laugh out of pity ‘cause let’s be honest, I’m not really that funny. I know that you’re shy, just let me sing you to sleep.
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You know what you want, you’re just afraid to admit it because you’re afraid of failing. screw that. Screw your fear. You know what you want, which is a hell of a lot more than most other people. So don’t be afraid or ashamed. Just go on and get it.

5 stages of moving on

1. Denial

Do you often say no and that you refuse to accept the fact that the relationship is over? Do you still believe that one day this person will come back knocking on your door? Then, you must be in the stage of denial.

There’s nothing wrong in hoping but sometimes you have to keep your hopes real. You can’t keep living on lies and empty promises, can you? Pretending isn’t gonna make what you are having now any less real. The sooner you accept things, the sooner you move on, this is the first task.
2. Anger

When you learn to accept that the loss is real, you begin to ask why? You will then fill every empty spaces to figure out what caused the failure of the relationship. You will then begin to know, you begin to understand and then you will look for someone to blame. You will feel anger starting to build and you must release it.

There is nothing wrong in being angry, in fact you need it. Anger is a motivating force, it will push you through. But be careful not to be c…

Hi Hat Cupcakes

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We run back to each other when it’s convenient. We know that in the end, we’re meant for each other but not for right now. So we play these games, act like we’re okay when one of us has someone else. When in reality it tears us apart to know that we can be happy with someone else. But it’s that slight hope that we will end up together that always keeps us running back for more.
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"That has always seemed so ridiculous to me, that people would want to be around someone because they're pretty. It's like picking your breakfast cereal based on colour instead of taste."

Never let anyone make you feel like you’re worth nothing.

Who are they to make you feel like a worthless piece of shit? Do not let someone think that they have the power to control what you think of yourself. Don’t let someone manipulate you so much that you end up feeling like you’re worth nothing, if they see that what they are doing is working, then they will keep doing. Don’t let someone who doesn’t matter, make you feel like you don’t matter either. You’re worth everything, believe it. Why let someone who means nothing to you in your life, define the way that you see yourself? Don’t let that happen. You’re better then that.

March 27, 2012.

I often wonder what would happen if I were to die. Who would cry at my funeral? Who would take back everything they said? Who wouldn't be able to go on without me? Who would wish they'd love me more. Who would wish they'd love me less?

Tres Leche

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Tres leches is a cake I never get tired of. How could I? It has everything I look for, on a comfort dessert. As you may know, this cake is very popular in Latin America, it’s a cake you will often find in birthday parties or any celebration really. It must be made in advance, letting it rest preferably overnight, to give the cake time to really soak up the tres leches (three milks).  This recipe is the most basic and simple.There are lots of different ways to make this cake, anything from fruit fillings to 4 leches (the addition of dulce de leche). The 4 leches is quite interesting, basically you make two or three layers, pour some tres leches mixture on a layer then, spread some dulce de leche. Repeat the process then pour the remaining milk mixture all over the cake.  I love 4 leches but it’s on the sweeter side which is why you can only have a little piece but, oh boy, what a little piece of heaven that is. There are different toppings too, some people like whipped cream, some like m…
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I have always been aware of how I break.

I know what kind of situations will break me.
I know what kind of people will do it.
I know how much it will hurt.
you promised you wouldn't hurt me, who's the one breaking promises now?
you said you miss me, well you have a real damn funny way of showing it.
you told me you love me, and I held on to those words of yours everyday.
you told me no lies between us, you were the one who never told me anything.
you said you were different. and I believed you.

how pathetic, innit? So pathetic, that it's actually funny.
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"stuff happens, but you can and you will get through it."

Fix you by Coldplay

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“When you try your best, but you don’t succeed, when you get what you want, but not what you need. When you feel so tired, but you can’t sleep, stuck in reverse. And the tears come streaming down your face, when you lose something you can’t replace. When you love someone, but it goes to waste, could it be worse? Lights will guide you home, and ignite your bones, and I will try to fix you.”

Whenever I hear this song…I always think it’s about being in a relationship. You know… that kind of relationship where you care so much about someone that no matter what the circumstances for what the fall-outs are, you always go back to them at the end of the day… and I think maybe it’s simpler than that. Maybe it’s just about being there for someone that has gone through a lot.

I mean… there are times in our lives where a series of bad things happen, but at that same instance, those moments are where people that care so deeply about us can be there for us, comfort us, and help us thro…

Wil Anderson on gays in the military

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“Nobody can save you but yourself and you’re worth saving. It’s a war not easily won but if anything is worth winning then this is it.”

— Charles Bukowski
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“I’m not even upset, hurt, or angry anymore. I’m just tired. I’m tired of putting in more effort than I receive. I’m tired of holding on for nothing. I’m tired of believing all your lies. I’m tired of proving me wrong every time. I’m tired of getting my hopes up and being disappointed again.”

Melting into books, pressing tears into books like flowers etc. etc. Hugging books while sleeping, whispering secrets into books, kissing books when the last sentence has been read, books that become an extension of your existence, books that fade away then reappear, magic books, old books, books that turn into the sea when in the sea.

And I never found out which was worse:

The fact that you didn't care;or the fact that I actually did.
"I miss you."
"I miss you too."
"Then come to me. I wantone more night. I want to sleep next to you one more time. I want to feel your heartbeat. I want my head on your chest and your arms around me. I want to feel your skin against mine. I want to pretend, for one night, that we didn't fuck it all up. That you're still mine."

Recipe of the day; Key Lime Pie

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Ingredients
1 block (8 ounces) cream cheese, softened1/2 cup sugar3 tablespoons lime curd 6 mini graham cracker crusts Whipped topping (recommended: Cool Whip)Sugared lime slices, for garnishDirections In a medium mixing bowl, beat the cream cheese and sugar with an electric mixer until creamy. Beat in the lime curd on low speed until just combined.
Spoon the mixture into the graham cracker crusts. Place on a small baking sheet in the freezer for 10 minutes. Serve with a dollop of whipped topping and 1/4 of a slice of lime that has been sprinkled with sugar.
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SOMEONE BUY ME THIS D:

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Oh my God, I can't even.. Ugh... It fucking glows. Dead

Ciao Bella

How could you say that? Say that I don't care. Say that I don't give two fucks.
You don't even know what I'm like when I don't give two fucks. Cause well, I've always given a fuck to you, to her.

I pretended it didn't even hurt when she called me a slut for talking to other guys, like the hell, it's talking, it's not like I'm sitting on their laps and making out with them. And the guys I'm talking to, they're just... ugh...  She doesn't even know what we're talking about, or who and she called me a slut, nice. And you, out of all people, you were the one who said I didn't care about her. You honestly think that now, do you? Ahh, that's pathetic.

I thought you knew me better than that. Hell, I thought you knew me  better than anyone else. Out of everyone who has ever doubted me. I have never in my life thought that you'd be one of them. You. The person I love so much. The person I gave up everything for. The same perso…
Everything will be okay. Think about what happened a year ago today. You probably can't even remember. Everything that seems important now won't be anymore. Things will find a way of working themselves out. Things aren't as impossible as they seem. Don't think about how broken your heart is right now, don't think about how things won't work out and how hard everything seems to always be. You have two moving feet and a heart that beats. Use your feet and go find someone or something to make your heart happy.Everything is going to work out. Whatever happens is what is supposed to happen. Maybe it won't always work out, I can't promise you that it will. but there is no reason to believe you won't be okay. There is no reason to believe everything won't work out.
I wonder what it’s like to live a life. I wonder what it’s like to do something for someone where they can’t repay you - something so profound that the only payment is another life. I wonder what it’s like to smile all the time, not only the grin your lips make, but also that happiness you feel with a genuine smile. I wonder what it’s like to make some kind of impact on the world. I wonder what it’s like to find love and I wonder what that feeling truly feels like. Or I wonder what it’s like to wake up everyday wanting to get out of bed. I wonder what it would be like if for every nice thing you did, someone could repay you. I wonder what life would be like without wars and death and crime.

I wonder.
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Half a year.

I've stopped cutting for half a year. You don't know how amazing that feels. The scars are still there, definitely, but I'm okay now. Everything does get better. It doesn't happen over night, so be patient.
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moving on

So you have just broken up with your boyfriend/girlfriend or vice versa? Naturally, you would be experiencing mixed emotions at the moment. A part of you will be hurt, a part of you angry and a part of you which still can not get over your ex. And since your partner has been an important part of your life in the past, it would be very difficult for you to imagine a life without them, at least for a while anyway I understand that. But know that at the same time, thinking about them, day in and day out, will not do you any good either. I mean eventually you have to the reach the point of really wanting to “let go” and move on. How long will you hurt before you put an end to your “wishful” thinking and start looking ahead in life?

I know the most difficult thing in this world is to accept that you and your partner are no more on the same page. But you have to know that the relationship you once carried on your shoulders is over. For good, for bad, I don’t know but letting g…
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For the nice guys

that finish last, that never become more than friends, that endure hours of whining and complaining about what assholes guys are, while disproving that very point every chance they get. This is dedicated to those guys who always provide a shoulder to lean on but restrain themselves to tentative hugs, those guys who hold open doors and give reassuring long heart to heart talks and sit patiently outside the changing room at department stores while waiting for their girl that’s just a friend. This is for the the guys that obligingly reiterate how cute/beautiful/smart/funny/sexy their female friends are at the appropriate moment, because they know most girls need that litany of support. This is for the guys with open minds, with laid-back attitudes, with honest concern. This is for the guys who respect a girl’s every facet, from her privacy to her theology to her clothing style.
This for the nice guys don’t often get credit where credit is due and perhaps more disturbing, the…
Tonight, let’s meet in your heart. You can take the back way, and I’ll go in through the front. Let’s go back to the days when we first meet, back to the days when your heart was getting stitched up from the wounds every time you hugged me. Let’s go back 9 months earlier, back to when we were crushing on each other and now let’s fast forward 9 months later, just to see how much our love has grown. Oh how I wish I can hold your smile in the palm of my hand just so I can take it with me where ever I go. I wish I had a way to see you everyday, that way you wouldn’t have those sleepless nights. Let’s go back to the day when you first came to my town and were amazed by the lack of heat. Back to the days, when kissing you was a simple move of your face, because honestly kissing the webcam isn’t the same but it’s better than nothing.

I don’t think people really realize what they have, until they’re separated by land, water, states and miles. You don’t understand the power of pi…
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Goodnight Moon

Don't go to bed yet love, I think it's too early. We just need a little time to ourselves. If my wall clock tells me that it's four in the morning, I'll give it hell. Cause I've been trying way too long to try and be the perfect song when our hearts are heavy burden, we shouldn't have to bear alone.

          So goodnight moon, and goodnight you. When you're all that I think about, all that I dream about, how'd I ever breathe without. A goodnight kiss, from goodnight you, the kind of hope they all talk about, the kind of feelings we sing about. Sit in a bedroom and read aloud, like a passage from goodnight moon.

        And sing for me softly, love, your song for tomorrow and tell me my name's the one sitting in there somewhere. And dream for me anything, but dream it in colour about when all the sun's still rising and we don't care. Cause I've been trying way too long to try and be the perfect song when our hearts are heavy …

"Once you've learned how to love, you should learn how to let go."

Time to let go, love.

I hate when I get like this. When I sit here and start to miss you so much. How all our memories come back and I feel like you are with me again. Then I open my eyes and realize you’re not and you’re never coming back. And then I want to talk to you even though I have been trying so hard not too. I cave in and become weak when I was starting to become strong. Why do I do this? Because I love you. Only you and no matter what I do to try to stop I can’t. No matter how bad times got or how many fights we got into I never gave up on you but you gave up on me. Why am I still holding on to something that’s not real anymore?

And how could you not trust me, seriously? I thought you knew me better than that. It's okay, everything is alright. Even if it isn't, it will be eventually. Goodbye, love.

Burn baby burn.

Starting of very new chapter.

I smell like smoke, and my cheeks hurt. My lips are dry and I've got a headache. I'm still trembling from what I heard.
But all that is all right, cause I have a sense of relief now.

My best friend, my boyfriend. I lost two of the most important people in my lives. Maybe it's my fault, maybe not. I'll just leave it at that. No more hurting, over thinking.

If it's meant to be, it will be. That's how it is from now. Doesn't mean no effort will be put in, obviously there still will be.

It wasn't a chapter that went bad, but it was definitely something worth remembering.

So goodbye, to you fuisim.
And to you too, daryl.
Both were amazing, but somewhere in between, something went wrong now, didn't it? Yeah.

We have so many things to remember by. So many memories, laughter, tears, pointless arguements.

Of course, it hurts. Like hell, if I had to be honest.
But it's what's best. I'll move on, you guys will too. A…
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Find someone who isn’t afraid to admit that they miss you. Someone who knows that you’re not perfect, but treats you as if you are. Someone who’s biggest fear is losing you. One who gives their heart completely. Someone who says I love you and means it. Last but not least, find someone who wouldn’t mind waking up with you in the morning, seeing you in wrinkles and your gray hair, but still falls for you all over again.

The Vow.

Paige :

I vow to help you love life, to always hold you with tenderness, and to have the patience that live demands. To speak when words are needed, and to share the silence when they're not, and to live within the warmth of your heart and always call it home.

Leo:

I vow to fiercely love you in all your forms, now and forever. I promise to never forget that this is a once in a lifetime love. I vow to love you and no matter what challenges might carry us apart, we will always find a way back to each other.

Knowing you should walk away but you don't because you believe that one day, hanging on to all of this might be worth it.

Miranda Kerr

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“I miss those midnight conversations. I miss how you would make me laugh out of my own frustration. But you just come to know that you get so used to being loved, and in one second it can all come crashing down. Now I know to not let anything get that far ever again, because I didn’t know how I could wake up one morning and have it all hit me. I didn’t know I could miss you this much.”
Music is amazing, There's some metaphysical comfort where it allows you to be isolated and alone while telling you that you are not alone... truly, the only cure for sadness is to share it with someone else.
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How do you kill the demon inside you without killing youself? How do you kill yourself without killing those closest to you?

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"An Eastern Asian legend originating in China and also referred to in Japanese mythology as well. According to this myth, the gods would tie an invisible red string around men and women who were meant to be soul mates and in time, would marry one another. This magical string can twist, tangle, or stretch, but the ‘bond’ will neverbreak.
The two people connected by the red thread are destined lovers, regardless of time, place, or circumstances.
No matter how far you go, we are always connected. I love you so much.










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“Without his Horcruxes, Voldemort will be a mortal man with a maimed and diminished soul. Never forget, though, that while his soul may be damaged beyond repair, his brain and his magical power remain intact. It will take uncommon skill and power to kill a wizard like Voldemort, even without his Horcruxes."