Showing posts from December, 2011


I know that this year has not been good to you. And you expected it to be, didn't you? So many hopes, expectations and everything. But in the end you were disappointed over and over again. I know how you feel, it's been rough on me too but hey, you gotta keep going, innit? I promise you, it'll be better with time. Everything will get better. So don't kill yourself cause you should be alive to see it when things do get better. Plus, you've made it so far already, why give up now? Why give in to life? Don't. Not now. Not ever. Keep loving. Keep fighting. Don't quit.

There's a hell lot to live for. This may not have been the best year and it may not have turned out the way you wanted it to, but I promise that without a doubt, next year will definitely be better. How'd I know? Cause things are already at rockbottom, there's no more space for disappointment, no more space for the bad things. The only way things can go now, is up. That's how I kn…

"That is your problem. People tell you they're in love with you and you believe them."

Last day of 2011.

I'm so glad. So fucking glad this year is over. It has been the worst of the worst. Can't wait for today to be over until it's 2012. Honestly, fuck it. Fuck this year, fuck all the 86 400 seconds everyday, all the 24 hours, 7 days a week, for 12 months straight. Fuck it all. Happy new year's eve.

"Whether it's taking each other for granted, or people changing over time. Bottom line is, someone stops trying and feelings aren't as strong as before."

Strangers, again


Reasons why gay marriage is wrong.

Those who know the least about you will judge you the most.” - Kylie Jenner
Sometimes I wonder if little kids have it easy. Scrapes form bike riding are the worst pain, the biggest concern is that recess isn't long enough, mommy or daddy can make anything better, two kids of the same gender can hold hands and are just cute and nothing esle, "goodbye" means see you tomorrow, the worst fighting you do is over who gets the red crayon, if you hand out together one recess automatically you're best friends, a valentine made of construction papre is the best gift you can give, and no one was afraid to say "I love you".

If whatever happens, just remember; I did, I do and I will love you.

It's so hard to wait around for something that you're not even sure is actually going to happen. but you can't seem to give it up when you know it's everything you've ever wanted.
"At some point, you'll realize that you have done too much for someone or something, that the only next possible step to do it stop. Leave them alone. Walk away. It's not like you're giving up, and it's not like you shouldn't try. It's just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation. What is truly yours will eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be."

Before 2011 ends,

I just wanted to tell you this: "Congratulations, you've made it. It might've been incredibly hard, but you got through the year. You might have made mistakes, lost friends or got hurt along the way but you're still alive. Today, I read an article that says 2011 has had the least amount of suicide committed in over 40 years. That's amazing. And let's keep the number of suicides low, okay? Never give up.
Before 2011 ends, I just want to let you know that you've made it this far so don't give up. Ever.
It's okay, I understand. I'm not that important.
Heath Ledger as the Joker skate boarding over Christian Bale as Batman while they take a break on the set of The Dark Knight.

So you want to kill yourself? Because no one cares about you. Your family and friends hate you. Right?

Your parents walking in your room in the morning to only find a dead body. They’ll try their hardest to not think negative, and to just think that you’re fooling around. Then they’ll start shaking you. Why aren’t you breathing? They’ll be broken. Tears. Many tears. More tears than you ever shed. Was it them? Were they the reason you did this? More tears. Pain. Every day. Every night. Every single second of every day. Guilt. More guilt. What about your best friends? They’re not going to care. Right? No. What’s the first thing that will go through their mind when your principal comes in and tells the class that you’re not alive. While your best friend sits there in tears. That girl that you’d smile at but never talk to? She’s now crying. The boy who used to kick you under the table just to annoy you? He’ll be shocked. He’ll be devastated. He’ll blame himself. What about your teacher? Thoughts crossing her mind. She’ll question if you did it because she didn’t make school co…
I'm so tired.
I feel like my feelings are just dragging me around.
There are too many, but now I'm just tired of them.
They are so redundant.
I am so predictable.
I am sick of the same cycle with myself. Here I am again, in some sort of inner battle, with one side only kind of half fighting.
That side being the one that says I should try and get out of this cycle.
It is saying that I should be careful of other people's feelings.
Haven't I learned that yet?
But I don't know.
Maybe this is just how it should be. Maybe doing what you want, when you want, regardless of anything, really is okay.
It sure feels okay when I'm asleep in the curve of your arm and side.
That is something really true.
Isn't it okay just to want that?

When you're dreaming with a broken heart, waking up is the hardest part.

Each night I stay past 12 or past 1, etc. Not because I'm not tired. Not because I want to tweak on these social networking sites. Because I am tired; I want to sleep. But I can't because my mind runs, like crazy. It over thinks, over analyze things that I don't want to think about. So I purposely keep myself awake and tire myself out so when I do finally lie in bed. I fall alseep straight away and my thoughts don't keep me up.
No, we are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars.
Things always happen for a reason. Sometimes, you end up finding the reason. Most of the time, you're left wondering, wondering why it had happened. Well stop wondering. If it's meant to be, it will be. If things didn't happen the way that they did, would you be who you are today? Would you have learned things that you might never have learned otherwise? Would you have learned from your mistakes?

Little Girl Gets Christmas Wish - Daddy Home from Afghanistan


"I vow to love you and no matter what challenges might carry us apart, we will always find a way back to each other."

- The Vow.

So you have some scars. So do I.

They don't make you any less beautiful. They don't mean you're anything less than amazing. They just show that you have stuggled; but survived. You're still here. You're stronger than you think you are. Never be ashamed of that.

You know what sucks?

Not knowing how someone feels about you? Why? Because you are constantly worrying, constantly wondering about all the "signs" the perosn gives you. This is why if you do happen to like someone, or feel something with someone then you should just tell them straight up. No mixed feelings. No keeping it all inside. Just tell them. No one likes being left alone wondering.

Sometimes I'd like to disappear.

Only for a while though. Not forever.
Just long enough to see if you'd miss me.
And I really really hope you would. Cause I know I'd miss you.

The Notebook.



I don't know why anyone would cheat on someone. look, the thing is. if you're not happy, then leave. There is no use staying with someone just because you don't want to hurt their feelings, you'd think that cheating would do the same damage to them than just breaking up with them. Don't cheat and don't be the "other one" who is also involved in cheating to an extent. Don't let someone who is taken, grab your attention. If they are happy in a relationship, just leave them be.

Been bullied?

I'd like to say that although I may not know you personally. It doesn't mean I don't know how you feel.

You are an amazing person and you don't deserve anything that has been done to you. Nothing. The people that are out there trying to sabotage your life are just pathetic.You are so much better than them, And I'm definitely not the only one who knows that. There isn't anything wrong with the way you look, or the way you talk, or the way you dress. And you shouldn't have anyone change that. You are who you are. And also you shouldn't have to change that for anybody.

The people out there who treat you like shit, will end up nowhere. Simply because they have no life, and they feel the need to ruin yours. Which is just plain stupid. I know what it feels like to be bullied. I do, and I also know that it's not nice. And it can really leave scars in your confidence and self esteem. But you are beautiful and amazing. You may not believe it now…
"I could just eat you guys up."
"You know, if I ate."

What happened to Disney? The shows used to have amazing messages in them. Why change to joking about something like an eating disorder, something that should never be joked about and it a very sensitive topic to alot of girls. Now, you're all just fuckers who disgust me.
" When you breathe, you inhale and you exhale, but every single time that you do that you're a little bit different then the one before. We're always changing. And it's important to know that there are some changes you can't control and that there are others you can. "
"Who says that's the only look?"
"You make people feel bad if they don't look like that."
"No one looks like that."
"I don't even look like that."
"Because if you haven't noticed.."
"People come in all shapes and sizes and they're all beautiful."
"Tell her girl! Speak the truth!"

All the little boy was going to ask Santa for was his father to come back from Iraq. Little did he know, his wish would come true and his father was right behind Santa.
You're fine exactly as you are.
Your curves, words, flaws, strengths, thoughts.
You don't need to change.
You aren't ugly, fat, stupid or worthless.
You are you.
And you are beautiful.

Distance isn't easy.

The hardest part of distance is that it's so easy to be jealous. It's easy to envy people who get to see the person that you want to see everyday. you get jealous of people who flirt with that person because you can't do that physically. You can't hold hands, kiss them, like other people can. You just constantly worry that they will eventually get sick of the distance and leave you for someone better. The jealousy can really get to you.

Being with the person you like

When you're with the person you like, you feel as if you're in a different world. There's no one else that you'd rather send your day with than them. You know that spending a day or even several minutes of your day with them will count. You can't believe that you're with them, and you'd do anything to make it a memorable day. Each and every time you see them smile, laugh, or even see them be happy, you know that you did something right and that's the outcome that you want. Being with the person you like is by far the best feeling and it's always something people look forward to in their life.

The Notebook.