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A world where you can learn your soulmate, but it comes at a price: when a soulmate is revealed to one of the partners, the other partner is denied access to the information - if you know your soulmate’s name, they can’t know yours. sixteen year old girls showing up with hopeful eyes only to have the woman in a mustard sweater hand over the empty folder with an apologetic smile. “sorry, they’ve claimed your pair already,” she says. sixteen year old girls who find two names in their folders and add “poly” to their sexuality label. sixteen year olds who haven’t come out of the closet, only to have their parents see the name and be faced with a world of trouble.frat boys who try to play the same “you’re her, you’re finally her” every night. girl squads who roll their eyes. frat boys who really meet the one on the floor of a dance party and feel their heart slam against their ribs and say “you’re her, you’re finally her,” and the terrible realization they’ll never be able to convince her.…
it’s silly but sometimes it’s easier to think of love like an amazon order without express shipping. i believe that love works in echoes. i know sometimes it feels like you are pouring yourself into a black hole, like you are being emptied and the universe has silenced you. but it remembers. it takes a while. sometimes it gets lost in the mail. sometimes it is too small to notice on your front porch. sometimes it arrives so broken you can’t use it the right way. but you send out love and it will come back. i know it. i know it.
I know telling someone about your secrets always ends up feeling like you have shoved wet clothes down your throat and now they’re tangled around your ribcage. but i’m proud of you for every person you blurted them to, for every midnight confession you woke up having to face in the morning, for facebook rants at two a.m. that remain frozen in time because you can’t delete them. for the itchy and sinking feeling of having someone who knows now. it will be okay or it won’t be okay. i won’t lie to you and tell you that all people will always be accepting of your truths. but it will get easier to speak of them. it will get easier to mold them into a shape that you can pronounce without flinching. one day you will be able to say it and it somehow won’t be a terrible close-guarded admittance. it will be just another fact about you, but one that’s only for close friends to witness. and maybe it won’t ever sit nice and maybe you’ll never find the words to express how it feels or maybe it just…

December

It's the 2nd of December now, the year has gone by in the blink of an eye, and despite whatever, it has been a good year.

Here's some important lesson learned:
stop waiting for people to meet you half-way. meet yourself at both ends of the table & those who are meant to eat with you will show up, whole too. love grows where love is recognized.know when it is time to let go; one of the lessons I've been trying to learn for a few years now is to stop wasting time trying to save a relationship/friendship that had already ended a while ago & waiting for change from someone who was content with who they were.no one gets it right the first time. you lose what you’re meant to keep and keep what has potential to kill you but you come back eventuallyyou are allowed to feel empty. you are allowed to feel pain and it’s okay to not have your shit together all at once, but do change. evolve.forgive yourself. forgive yourself. forgive yourself. forgive yourself. forgive yourself.j…
today i realized that even when you think you know everything there is to know about yourself, there’s still more to learn. even when you think you’ve considered all the possibilities of a situation, there’s still something you haven’t even thought of; another side of the story. it’s both exciting and terrifying to me to know that i’m never going to stop learning new things about who i am and how i interact with the world. part of me wants to have it all figured out so i know what move to make, what connection needs to be drawn next. another, larger part of me, doesn’t want to know. that part of me wants to throw myself into discovery and making mistakes and trying new things. i like the idea of recreating myself again and again. i’ve also realized that it’s possible to hurt someone you care about without even realizing it. you can be so caught up in this big, loud, scary thing that you don’t even see how what you’re doing in your own hurt is hurting someone else. and how now, when i th…

November Update

There's less than a month till I pull the curtains on this chapter of my life, it's very exhilarating yet terrifying at the same time, The constant "what comes next?", "where will I be?", "what will I be doing?". 
It's less than two months till the year is over and I guess it's important to think: When you look back onto your life, what do you see? Do the days seem to blend together? Does it feel like there has been a constant change? Does your life seem to flash by just like that? It's true what they say y'know? That time really flies. And if we aren't careful, one day will turn into one year, and one year will become one decade. Live mindfully, treasure this moment.



Some gentle reminders:
Stay close to people who feel like sunlightEverything is temporary, there is nothing in the world that will not change, including youMake sure that the people around you reflect the value within youIt’s not your job to care about people who …
This is a gentle 12AM reminder that:
Sometimes you fall off the wagon for months. Sometimes you tell yourself you’re gonna start fresh on Monday and by Wednesday you’ve already fallen back off. Sometimes you have to restart a 100 times and it’s frustrating. But it will be okay. You can do this. One day at a time.