Monday, April 10, 2017

And my god, I hope you wake up one morning to someone who loves you like you’re a sunflower and they’re desperate to keep you alive. I hope you dance with them in the small space of your kitchen floor, messy hair and tired eyes because you both been up all night watching movies again. I hope you laugh with them in a way you never did with anyone else, head tilted back and lips apart as you let out every sound your laugh can possibly make and I hope to god you don’t try to cover your mouth. And if you do, because that’s okay, I know I sometimes do, I hope they stop you. I hope they grab your hand before it ever comes in contact with your lips and I hope they hold it to their chest as they watch you with kind loving eyes. Because Jesus, everyone knows you deserve it. And I hope you find someone who’ll accept you. I hope they accept your messy hair in the early morning of the day and I hope they accept the way you sometimes talk too much and can’t seem to stop when you’re nervous or how you still cry yourself to sleep on some nights. I hope they hold you and kiss you on the places where you’re most insecure at and I hope to god you let them. I hope you find someone who makes you happy, even when you feel like sometimes, life is too hard for you. And I hope that when you both come across a tough situation and it comes down to a choice where you are one of them, I hope they choose you. Every goddamn time, I hope they choose you.

Thursday, April 6, 2017

2017 April update:

Happy. Happy. Happy. Happy. Happy. 

Albeit a little terrified but more happy than terrified. Honestly though, everything feels so unreal, maybe because a big part of it are all firsts? Maybe, or maybe it's cause for once in this damned life, there's someone willing to put in just as much, if not, even more, into this whole thing. Maybe. 

But one thing's for sure, I'm happy. Sincerely sincerely happy. 




On another note: Yeah, they should’ve treated you better. They should’ve cared more. But they didn’t and they don’t, and your life keeps moving forward.

Friday, March 31, 2017

concept: it’s 3am and we are in bed together. we should be asleep but we are talking about how we will be when we are old. how we will live in a cute house with antiques and a garden and we will act like silly teens always giggling and kissing and we will grow old together.

Saturday, March 25, 2017

So the night literally took my breath away and I've all these emotions bottled up and I truly don't know how to spill it out but I'm so happy, on the brink of deliriousness, if you'd like. But I'm so happy.  Christ I wanna share this feeling with everybody because it feels so good and bubbly and giggly and my cheeks hurt from smiling and my throats hurts from laughing and I just, I don't know y'know?  Is this what it feels like? For things to be raw and genuine and sincere and maybe real? It's terrifying though, I gotta be real honest here; it's absolutely scaring the shit out of me but yeah, we'll see I guess.  Also, maybe y'all don't get told this enough but you deserve to be happy. Always. 

Wednesday, March 22, 2017

A couple of gentle reminders:

  • some days you do big things and conquer the universe and other days you’re really proud of yourself for making a spectacular grilled cheese and not killing yourself but either way it’s all good 
  • Overlooking the bad in someone and how they treat you terribly just because you love them is very bad for you and your well being, stop
  • More love
  • Tell people how important they are to you, always
  • C'est comme ├ža 
  • Just cause someone chooses another person over you doesn't make your worth any lower
  • Think of three things you're grateful for at the end of the night before you go to sleep
  • Be kind
  • Always always always keep your head up, baby

Friday, March 17, 2017

Update:

The first step is always the hardest to take, has the most hesitation.

Because what if you regret it right? what if you turn out not liking the decision you make and it was a mistake?

The first step is always the hardest to take because  it is our human nature to stay in our bubble, to fall into a pattern of familiarity, to stay "safe".

But growth never comes about from staying put, you and I both know that.

Monday, March 6, 2017

Nikita Gill

Do not allow him to consume you. If he does not call, go to sleep. 
If he does not message, put your phone away and have a fantastic day anyway. 
If he acts distant when you are with him and refuses to tell you what is wrong, don’t wait for him, go home and do something you love. 
If he tries to insinuate you do not need your friends now that you have him, spend more time with your friends. 
If he tries to teach you a lesson through the silent treatment, ignore him completely. 

If he plays with your feelings constantly, walk away from him. 
If he acts like your body is his entitlement when you are not ready, walk away from him.
If he says terrible, unforgivable things and threatens to leave you after every argument, walk away from him. 
If he forbids you from doing anything you love, walk away from him. 
If he claims ownership of your accomplishments, walk away from him. 
If he demeans you or disrespects your being a girl and refuses to stop when you tell him it hurts, walk away from him.


I cannot stress this enough, you live for yourself first. 

He is a secondary character in the story of your life.
Do not allow him to turn you into a secondary character in your own book.
Look, a while ago, everything was a blur and everything broke my heart but this feels so refreshing and it makes me feel all warm and fuzzy and makes my heart happy.

Tuesday, February 7, 2017

if you are a young thing i have one piece of advice for you:
being enthusiastic and happy about things you love is more important than being apathetic and snide. you will go so much farther in life spending energy on and talking about something you love than wasting energy on only complaining about or making fun of something you don’t. 
don’t focus on mocking others for being genuinely excited about something. focus on the things and people you love. 

Sunday, January 1, 2017

2016.

It's been good and rough by mostly good. Aside from so many political shit that went down last year, selfishly for me it has been a relatively good year. 

I think it slightly irks me how everyone's always saying "oh it's been such a shit year for me" "worst year ever" etc etc, I mean come on, you said the same damned thing for the last 5 years, just lighten up a little yknow? Just focus on the good. You attract what you exude. I think for 2017, I just wanna focus mainly on the good, I know easier said than done but gotta start somewhere innit?

Thursday, December 1, 2016

PHOTOSET + UPDATE




Summer break is finally here meaning I've one more gruesome and tiring year to go till my regalia, so close I can smell it (not literally). Also, it is officially the first of december meaning the year is also coming to an end.

I see posts of social media saying how terrible 2016 has been, and I'm not sure if I can relate tbh, cause if anything it's been both good and bad, more good than bad, I hope it has been the same to all of you who's reading this too. My results will be coming out in exactly 2 weeks, pretty stoked for it I might add, gut feeling that I did pretty well in the exams + my internals has been pretty decent through the entire semester.

I've lost a bunch of "friends" over the semester, lmao tbh I wouldn't really call them friends come to think of it, but ay you win some, you lose some innit? Not that it is in any way a loss in this case.

Other than that, nothing much has been going on, so head over here to enjoy some food+travel posts with (from my pov and hopefully yours too) some aesthetically pleasing photos.

Thursday, October 6, 2016

Gentle reminder:

you will find your home, you will find your place. you will find your people. give it a little bit of time but it will happen.

Wednesday, September 14, 2016

16 Lessons (sort of?) halfway through 2016


  1. The friends you have at the beginning of the year can completely change by the end of it. People change, and if they aren’t improving your life in some way, it’s okay to drop them.
  2. Take many pictures.
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  3. Find your safe place. Whether it be in the arms of a certain person or at home jotting down proses in your journal, find it and don’t let it go. You can have more than one safe place.
  4. Be nice to everyone. You honestly don’t know what skeletons people are hiding in their closets. Everyone has their skeleton. Every person on this earth has something in their life or past worth collapsing on the ground in uncontrollable sobs over. (Side note: do no harm BUT TAKE NO SHIT.)
  5. The minute you feel your happiness being dictated by someone else, take a break from them.
  6. It is important to be able to be alone and enjoy your own company.
  7. You can be the ripest, juiciest peach in the world, and there’s still going to be somebody who hates peaches.
  8. Those who mind, don't matter. Those who matter, don't mind.
  9. Feel everything and let it hurt, but don’t go back to what broke you.
  10. Don’t let fear hold you back from what you want. The view from the other side is spectacular.
  11. Tell people how you feel. Even if you’re scared it’ll burn your life to the ground. You say it loud.
  12. You find the most extraordinary things in the most ordinary places.
  13. Sometimes the way you think of someone isn’t the way they actually are.
  14. Timing is never going to be perfect; if you care about something enough, you’ll make the time. It’s all about priorities.
  15. You only need yourself, but having people by your side trying to understand means a lot more than you might think.
  16. You find your truest friends in your darkest hours.